Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Health Update

I don't know any better way to say this, but the doctors found a spot on one of my lungs that they are concerned about. The possibilities are that it is scar tissue from radiation therapy or that the cancer is back. Rather than schedule me for a biopsy, my oncologists are going to wait six weeks then give me another CT scan. From that next scan they'll be able to see if it has shrunk, stayed the same, or has grown. Needless to say, this has made my day difficult. The good news is that my oncologists have seen this type of thing before and it has turned out to be nothing. It is hard for me though, because the thought of having to go back into treatment is extremely distressing.

Keep thinking of me and praying for me.

M!

23 comments:

Chandra said...

I am!
Even though I've been MIA... Still thinkin of you.

Your mission is to go out this weekend and shoot another "movie"...

YOU CAN DO IT! (said like Rob Schneider... this is when tone would really help!)

Melliferous Pants said...

I'm sorry you didn't get the results you were hoping for...I am still crossing my fingers and toes for you, Grunty.

Christielli said...

Will definitely be thinking and praying for you. I really really hope that it's nothing, just like your doctors have seen before.

Julie Schuler said...

You've got it. all my thoughts and good wishes.

Queue_t said...

Praying without ceasing- here for you kido. take care of you. QT

Sun Follower said...

Prayers are always headed your way. I hate that you have to wait to hear the definitive answer... but something inside tells me it is in fact nothing...

The Grunt said...

Chandra~ I tried making an action movie but my camera phone only does 17 second shots, so it was me running down a hallway real intense like. Thanks for being here for me.

Pants~ Yes, the operative phrase is "results that you weren't hoping for". The doctors did not say that I have cancer, just that they have serious concern. This is why I pay them the big bucks. No matter, though, it still feels like a mule kick to the gut when you are confronted with certain possibilities. Having to wait six weeks to find out will test my patience.

Christielli~ I hope so as well. I was starting to feel like I was climbing out of the pit I was in from before and it is the thought of going through that again that bothers me. With your help I should get through either way. I'll stay positive.

Julie~ Thanks. It may sound corny, but to know that people are thinking and praying for my cause, it really helps--even if you pray to Captain Howdy.

QT~ I would expect nothing less from one of my most awesome readers.

Sun~ I am siding with scar tissue, but it sure would've helped if they could find out now. That would require a rather invasive biopsy proceedure, though. The fact that my oncologists have been burned numerous times and are willing to wait and scan me tells me where they are placing their bets.

Clearlykels said...

Most definitely.

I know it's hard to think this way but it probably is nothing. They're just being more cautious with you because you have a history.

Anytime I have a breast exam my dr freaks out when she feels something-- I go for an array of tests that always turn out to be nothing. The thing is, my mom died of cancer so they just don't want to miss anything.

Crystal said...

HUG

i am not even going to cop a feel because it would be inappropriate.

so

HUG

Karyn said...

Will do.

Now. Pardon me, because this is so unenlightened, but WTF - WHY do you have to wait six weeks when they could biopsy the thing NOW and a) put your mind at rest or b) get cracking on getting rid of it six weeks sooner?

I'm sorry - that seems totally F***ed up to me. I'm enraged on your behalf. (Again - maybe it stems from ignorance, but only as much as it stems from concern.)

egan said...

Bloody hell man, when do you get to catch a break? This is ridiculous. Fuck, good thoughts headed your way.

Outdoorsy Girl said...

You know I am always praying for you. I'm praying that its scar tissue or something benign and that you will have comfort and strength while waiting.

You are going to be fine and STAY that way.

Keshi said...

whatever it is Grunty, I hope u find that same strength to fight it all bak. HUGGGGGGGGGGZ!

Keshi.

Photogirl said...

I'm sending you all kinds of good thoughts.

and a huge ass HUG!

make that two :)

The Grunt said...

Kels~ Yes, now that I've had a history of cancer the doctors are going to freak out at the smallest thing. That is good, but it still puts me through the wringer emotionally.

Crystal~ Thanks for the hug. I wouldn't even mind it if you copped a feel.

Karyn~ They didn't want to do the biopsy because in order to get to this spot it would require invasive surgery. The doctors have been burned numerous times with this scenario. It tells me that they are feeling that it is scar tissue, but that they are going to find out without cutting in deep at first.

Egan~ Yeah, tell me about it. The hardest part of this was that I was just starting to recover from treatment--like I could finally get on with my life. Then they hit me with this and I have to wait another month and a half to find out. Ugh!

O-Girl~ I hope so as well.

Keshi~ I am strong, sure. But damn if this doesn't hurt.

The Grunt said...

Celeste~ I'll take those huge ass hugs! I need them.

Autumn Storm said...

Grunt, am going to hold you with me for the next weeks, more so than usual. Love and hugs to you, we'll be whenever you need an ear, xo

Anonymous said...

Found you through a friend's blog. You are an inspiration to so many people. You've made me laugh, made me cry, but most of all you've helped me appreciate my own life more and taught me through your experiences how to better look at my own. I love your spirit. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Just take it one day at a time.

Leigh

Tys on Ice said...

it will be nothing...

iam lighting a lamp for you.

Jules said...

It's just going to be a scar... I will pray, Babes, I will pray. **TIGHTEST HUGS**

egan said...

Let's hope the next six weeks fly by sir.

Diane Mandy said...

I'm thinking of you!

The Grunt said...

Autumn~ I like that idea.

Leigh~ I hope I get to see more of you and get to know you a bit better.

Tys~ Thanks man!

Jules~ I hope so too.

Egan~ Totally. The waiting just kills me.

Diane~ Thanks. I need to know that because it helps.