Sunday, October 05, 2008

Lalalalalalalalala! And Random Thoughts.

Do you ever have one of those moments where you just don't want to hear something? You know, you do the whole stick your fingers in your ears routine while humming? Yeah, I totally had one of those moments on Saturday.

On a totally unrelated note, that is totally not unrelated, my niece will always seem like a little girl to me, that little girl that I helped baby sit and enjoy watch turn into a sweet girl, despite her surroundings. When they go and do something that can potentially mess up their whole life it is just too much to take in sometimes. Please forgive me for not saying exactly what it is that has happened. I'm still in her corner.

Speaking of corners, have you ever talked, or not talked but found yourself in a corner without having one wit of there being a problem? Yeah, that rocks. I get upset at the situation, and not necessarily at the person who has me on my heels, but that only makes things more confusing for the both of us. This is what happens when I talk to people when I am drowsy...yeah, that's the ticket. The best part is when you recognize that it was all a misunderstanding and then you laugh uncomfortably hoping that it really is over. Or is it? Mwahahahahahaha!

I've done some reflecting on the recent past today. I have determined that I need to learn how to play chess for my own enjoyment. However, in the metaphorical sense of the game, I have played well so far and am now enjoying a, hopefully, long respite until the match resumes. My opponent has seen that I am not easily checked. Ultimately, my opponent will have checkmate, but I will give him a match that will test his skills mightily. Knowledge is never easily gained and sometimes faith must be a chosen path, rather than waiting to have it revealed. Sometimes the best revelations are had in trial and error, not in success.

"It is finished!" -from Ingmar Bergman's The Seventh Seal.

Don't count on it!


Anonymous said...

Your niece is lucky she has you in her corner. I don't have kids, but lots of nieces and nephews and it is so incredibly hard to sit back and let them make their own choices. Can't imagine what most parents feel like when their kids get to the point where they can make their own decisions and the parents can clearly see it isn't the best one to be making. Just keep being there for her. leigh

Julie Schuler said...

well.. I've made many a poor choice, but somehow have managed to pull it out of a nosedive time and time again as the ground looms. Good luck to us all.

Jay said...

I hear ya. I'd rather be the chess player over one of the chess pieces any day!

Diane Mandy said...

Family relationships can be interesting at times, huh? I'm glad your niece has you.

Christielli said...

Hope things go OK for your niece. She is lucky to have you in her corner.

Sun Follower said...

Ah... Bergman. :)

Grunt, I can literally feel your peace of mind and happy soul in every word you write these days.

The Grunt said...

Leigh~ Yeah, I think it would be harder to be a parent. My sister (her mother) is really having a hard time with the situation.

Julie~ Well, somethings aren't necessarily poor choices, but just unlucky or unprofitable ventures. My niece's was definitely a poor choice.

Jay~ Yeah, it's not good to be the pawn.

Diane~ My niece is 21, has been married and divorced already, is in debt to the tune of $7,000, and has not worked a steady job in over a year. This last situation has me shaking my head because she can't even take care of herself. That's your little clue there.

Christielli~ As much support as I can give her, she still has her own agency.

Sun~ My piece of mind has been a long time coming. I can identify with both the knight Antonius and his squire Jöns from that movie. I've been both of them much of my life. I'm hoping to become more like the simple actor, Jof. His wife was hot, too!

Anonymous said...

Hmmm... now I'm just trying to figure out if I happen to be one of these people that you talked to that said something you didn't want to hear, or while you were drowsy. Enough of this "protecting" people crap... I want names AND details ;)

I'll totally play you in online chess. I already have a site I use. Yes, I happen to suck, and never really win, but that's beside the point. Bring it on!

Chandra said...

Does she call you uncle Grunt? I think I would have to laugh if I heard that one! lol.

Dealing with a deaf little girl, I never realized how overwhelming it is just for her to sit and focus and listen before. Makes me appreciate getting to listen to music etc more than I ever did. I think it takes a certain kind of person to be able to just sit and not listen and just think. It doesn't seem like it's acceptable to do this... it's called "wasting time" apparently.

Hope everything is okay with your niece.

The Grunt said...

Meggypoo~ Right on! Also, I'm sure you are well aware of the things you do to bug the hell out of me. I can distinctly remember telling you to bug me a long while back.

Chandra~ She does not know me as Grunt, thank goodness. Uncle Grunt sounds like a molester's moniker.