Thursday, January 22, 2009

Everything is fine, just fine

I have to tell myself that once in a while. Even if it may not feel true, I repeat it over and over until I believe it. It isn't denial. Its mood management. I am still aware of the challenges that confront me and those who I care for. When I'm calm, however, I am better able to deal with the problems at hand.

In order:
  1. Mother
  2. Brother
  3. Niece
  4. Sister
  5. Father
  6. Myself
The issues (not in order):
  • Jobless without direction and excessive debt.
  • Frail and trying to come to terms with the inevitable.
  • Part of the fat that might get trimmed.
  • Will he pop the question?
  • Passing blood and undergoing extensive tests.
  • Worn out, in pain, and displaced from their position at work.
Sometimes life is a white blur. Sometimes it is as real as obsidian. I wear gray and try to walk that line the best I can.

13 comments:

Julie Schuler said...

Through you and into the universal will. Let all be accomplished and realized according to each who strives and languishes, in clarity, in quiet, in the unfailing and eternal.

Chris said...

Prayer and a fine imported lager doesn't hurt either.

Jay said...

Stay strong man. And have one of Chris' beers for me.

Scott said...

Love the way that you put yourself out there, be well and make sure to take care of you!

Chandra said...

I am trying to figure out if the numbers are in colilation with the dots. Sometimes being a human can be so frustrating and unworthwhile... and then something happens... something that changes you, and you smile and somehow all the rest of it doesn't seem to matter.

Hopefully you are mellow yellow and able to deal with things. Thinking of you, and sorry for the lack of messages.. I didn't forget about you!

The Grunt said...

Julie~ Beautiful. Thanks.

Chris~ I can do the prayer. I'll down a Mountain Dew instead of the lager.

Jay~ Thanks. I'm strong like bull!

Scott~ Tough times for the both of us. We'll do all right, though.

Chandra~ The people are in order of priority--of my concern. The issues are out of order so as to protect the innocent;) I'm the one who is part of the fat that might get trimmed at work. I know that I can adapt, so I'm not at the top of the list.

Logophile said...

Have a Mountain Dew and some beef jerky, my friend.
I have some of those same features on my list of "People of concern."

Want to hold hands around the campfire and sing kumbaya?
I doubt it will help but we would be feeling so self conscious the other stuff might fade a bit.

Christielli said...

Sounds like a lot of stress there.

Make sure that you take care of yourself though. This is very important.

The Grunt said...

Logo~ Jerky and Dew sounds good right now.

Christielli~ You are right. Will you be my life coach? :)

Sun Follower said...

Life is good and sucks all at once... beautiful.

Diane Mandy said...

I've been away for a bit because of my travel schedule and have just had the chance to catch up on you now. Sorry things are stressful for you and your loved ones right now. I hope all will be better soon!

The Grunt said...

Diane~ Well, it is good to hear from you! Some of my family's situations have improved, I am happy to say. I am still worried about my mother's health, though.

Tys on Ice said...

keep walking my man.