Monday, November 16, 2009

My Bonnie

She just had her birthday this Halloween and was out of rehab the same day. That Monday she was overwhelmed with being terminated from her job. She closed herself off from everyone after that. I found out tonight that she has passed away. My parents made a lot of calls today to her apartment manager, the rehab facility, and finally the police. The police found her body in her apartment. She probably passed away on Friday sometime. I don't know the full details yet and won't know until the autopsy and investigation are completed. But the officer that my parents talked to said that there were no notes and that it looked as if her body had just failed.

I don't want to preach. Alcohol is such a curse to many in this world. She deserved better and I feel she at least does have that now. She was in so much pain. As good of a human being as she was, she had to deal with so much hardship in her life. She didn't deserve any of it. She led such an honorable life that the darkness that burdened her in her last year of life will not taint her legacy. She is my angel now.

I am very heart broken and sad, but I am dealing with this as well as could be expected. I miss her like crazy. She is loved. I love her. I just can't see her for awhile, but I feel that I will be with her again someday.

10 comments:

Julie Schuler said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Karyn said...

*hugs*

Megan said...

Matt-

I don't know what to say other than I am so sorry. Know that I am thinking of you and your family and sending all of my good thoughts your way. Love you!

Jay Ferris said...

Horrible news man. Best of luck picking up the pieces. If you need someone to help take your mind off of things, I'm here to help!

BrettM said...

Cousin,

I've been pondering how to comment on this since I found out from my dad last night.

Our family is saddened by Bonnie's passing. We love her. We love you guys and are here for any support you need.

Even though we haven't spent a ton of time together in recent years, I can say without hesitation that I am honored to be related to you and your family.

Please let me know anything I can do.

Julie Schuler said...

I am not a very "awardy" person by nature, but I gave you a link today and a lovely bunch of ranunculus on my blog.

Christielli said...

I am so sorry. *hugs*

vera said...

So very sorry Grunto... Thoughts are with you... *hugs*

<3 V

Jules said...

Oh Goodness, M... I'm so sorry to hear this. Please come to my world and live in the hugs that are all around you. You will see her again, and she'll help you in your life as much if not more than ever before now that she's your angel. XOXO

Tys on Ice said...

sorry pal...nothing much to say..its a terrible loss and you have to handle it alone...my thoughts are with u and ur family...really sorry that this happened to you